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Saturday, August 20th, 2005
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| Time: | 1:27 pm. |
| Mood: |  sore. | | Music: | Bush-machine head. |
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fuuucccckkkkkkk....i just got my wisdom teeth taken out, and oh my god. it hurts like hell. I havent been able to work or drive for the past 2 days....
ive also been living off of vicodin apparently cuz i only have like 5 pills left....i dont even remember taking that much....
for some reason im really tired but i dont wanna go to sleep....
omg, i hope my cheeks dont stay this swollen tomarrow. i look SOOO disgusting, my face looks 20 pounds fatter cuz my mouth is SO swollen...
im also the only one here cuz the fagins are in san francisco til tomarrow.
god do you wanna know what sucks the MOST? i havent been able to smoke for TWO DAYS! i want a cigarette so bad but i cant smoke or ill get dry socket. grrrr.
blllaaaahhhhhhh im so ....sore....
aw, i miss everyone i havent seen ANYBODY all day, except for fan when she left...
i SERIOUSLY need to hang out with sierra and michelle, i told michelle i would...i feel so bad for forgeting to call her. i keep on forgeting to do things because of this damn vicodin, its been fucking up my memory.
oh, and im also quitting port of subs because the people i work with are racist dumb ass bitches and they didnt believe how much pain i was in today and were MAD at me for not working today. DAMN im so pissed at them. i asked them for more hours, and what do they do? they CUT my hours and hire a new indian bitch!i know i sound racist for saying that, but TRUST ME, IM not the racist one there..
but whateva, im friends with the manager at round table and shes gonna get me a job as a driver, and even though my car is a piece of shit, i wont be traveling too far, and theyll pay for some of the gas. AND, i heard i can get really good tips^_^
so ya im just gonna keep myself positive somehow til i can get myself together....
~FLay
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Saturday, July 23rd, 2005
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| Time: | 12:08 pm. |
| Mood: |  busy. | | Music: | Rooney-If it were up to me, Yeah Yeah Yeahs-art star. |
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ya, i dunno why im updateing cuz i dont think anyone read my last post, but whateva.
well, my car was having trouble AGAIN.....but i just got it looked at and it didnt cost anything, YAY^_^!
so i kinda celebrated by spending 40 bucks at Target....not to mention it was after i spent 70 bucks at the mall yesterday...god i HATE having checks, theyre EVIL...they make me buy EVERYTHING....
haha ya i bought some tight ass posters, a kill bill one and a strokes one. i also got some REAL lip rings from Hot Topic(finally)and a sexy corset outfit that depresssed the hell out of me cuz it just accentuated how fucking SMALL my boobs are......and i thought they would pop out....
i got some other interesting shit i didnt need, like a 12 pack of Jones' strawberry-lime soda, that is exquisite by the way....
anyways i better go so i can plug in my new TV, well, its sarahs but whatever.
~FLay
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The Generic Teenager Stereotype
Do you drink [alcohol]?: not in the last kouple weeks,but before that....god, a little too much
Do you party a lot? How often?: once every few weeks, but they usually suck ass
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?: haha ya
How often do you use the word like in an average hour?: id say over a billion times
Do you skip classes? How often?: usually at least one a day
Do you have casual sex? Protected?:...ya...usually not protected..but im NOT a slut..even though it seems like it sometimes
Do you steal?: haha no but i used to all the time with sarah f lol
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?: ya
Do you drool over celebrities?: not really
Do you watch a lot of TV?: only cuz i dont have a job right now-_-
Do you ever watch the News?: no
Do you even care about world issues?: Yeah sometimes.
Do you read books often?: i havent read a book in a like a year,until like a week ago when i read Carrie. ya thats like the only book i like....
Are you failing a lot of your classes?: actually,for the first time in my life i am:(
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?: well, i spend like almost 100% of my time with candice cuz i live with her,and the rest of the time with my other friends..so ya lol
Do you smoke cigarettes?: too much
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?: ew no im not a dork
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?: not lately, its usually just a lustful thing if i do lol
Do you cuss a lot?: i think i say fuck to much...
Are you desperate to fit in?: hell no, i couldnt if i tried
Are you intelligent?: people say i am, but i think im one of the stupidest people i know
The Goth Stereotype
Black lipstick?: ew sick GOD no
Black eyeliner?: yes sometimes
Black eyeshadow?: no
Black trenchcoat?: ew no im not my BROTHER
Black boots?: no, i have tan ones..but black seem more appealing
Black fishnets?: actually yes, but i lost them
Black nail polish?: NO
Cigarettes?: yes
Heavy metal music?: no
Marilyn Manson?: i dont care
Kittie?: no
Cradle of Filth?: no
Constant frown and perpetual angst?: UHHHH haha NO
Do you like to be seen as: i dont really care
Are you an intellectual?: probably not
An atheist?: im like, nothing
Horrible home life?: do i really need to answer that?
Hopelessly depressed?: id say 75% of the time
Suffering with suicidal idealations?: often
Self-mutilation?: ....guilty
The Punk Stereotype
Plaid?: plaid is cute
Big black boots?: well, the preppier style, yes
Mohawk?: ew GOD no
Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]: not excessive, but i like piercings.
Loud, confident and opinionated?: i dunno, sometimes
Wild hair colors?: yah, i guess as wild as i can go for school,which is like, not that wild...
NOFX?: no i dont listen to them
Rancid?: uh no
Well versed on political scandals and outrages?: kinda, not really
ok so that was like a total waste of time..but it took so long writing it i have to post it lol
~FLay
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Wednesday, November 3rd, 2004
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| Time: | 4:41 pm. |
| Mood: | discontent. |
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damn, my life is going to shit, like seriously this time. im just i dunno how to explain it, but life just doesnt have anything for me right now.
all i can do is survive for 6 months, can i do it? will i get pushed to the edge?
well, im scared. im scared of myself and what im gonna end up doing. and most of all, what the fuck is in it for me in the future....can i survive this? what IS keeping me alive. i guess the only answer to that question is candice. i dont know what id do without her. that poor girl, she can do so much better than me for a best friend....if only leah still went to school.....
i have to find a meaning to all of this....
~FLay
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Friday, October 29th, 2004
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| Time: | 3:37 pm. |
| Mood: | depressed. |
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yah, im at the library right now, feeling pretty shitty. i have to make this quick cuz im on a time schedule.
i guess im just really pissed off cuz i have no freedom, no boyfriend, and have to deal with myself. i dont even know how im gonna survive a weekend alone. seriously, being isolated from my friends is like the WORST punishment i could ever get and well, i got it.
but yah.....
im also pissed cuz fuckin josh is always too busy to write me or leave me a message so im stuck here bored as fuck trying to decide whether i should email him again or not. haha maybe he saw the pictures i sent him of me and decided i was uglier than he thought. i dunno thats just me being stupid. its not like he's gonna actually read my journal anytime soon so whatever.
..............god i hate how i have to have a guy to be happy...........oh well, at least im honest about it right? maybe i should keep more things to myself.....especially that.
fuck it.
ewww omg, i sounded SO desparate! haha i hope josh doesnt read this, he'll get SO creeped out!^0^ he probably wont so whateva.
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Wednesday, October 27th, 2004
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HAHA GEEZ candace thanks for the dead frog u bitch! lol, j/k^_- haha and LEAH giving me a rotten egg? JESUS CHRIST and you say ur my friends! HAHA yah, im kidding, duh, but yah that game is fun^_-
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Sunday, October 24th, 2004
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| Time: | 2:07 pm. |
| Mood: |  rushed. |
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yah, i was bored and going through my old entries, and i realized that i didnt write even one post about this josh guy i met like a year ago from san diego and yah i just found out he has a livejournal. awww, i wish i posted the day i met him cuz i remember how shitty my day was and how out of ALL the people there, that rivers cuomo guy that me and sarah were swooning over just HAPPENED to give me his number. ok yah thats basically the story....
i guess thats a good thing that i never wrote about him because i call him way too much already and he probably thinks im creepy enough the way it is...i guess i really dont care about guys i like as much as i did before, because there were so many other guys i liked that i wrote like a million posts about. yah well whateva.
omg, i SO would go into more about this guy i was just talking about but im gonna give him my screen name soon so yah.......haha its so obvious what i was implying.
awwwww i miss the OLD days, back when me and sarah were best friends....even when she lived in her old house on bliss...it was A LOT more like home.....
~FLay
P.S.: omg i gave into "the trend" and made an icon of this ugly bitch i call myself....yah, i like it cuz its blurry....
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| Mood: |  tired. |
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ive just realized that i sleep sooo much better during the day for some strange reason. i came home from work about 3, took a shower than fell asleep until like, 9....wow thats....6 hours of sleep! and im still tired!
wow, whats with me not being able to sleep at night....i wish that i went to school at night and slept during the day...i think the whole world should do that...no one will ever see daylight. i wonder how healthy that would be...
wow, anyways, so i guess a lot has happend this weekend.
GRRRRR i REALLY wanna go into the whole hoopla with cocks a lot but i feel like im jinxing myself if i openly obsess about im on lj..even though its REALLY good!!!! aw, fuck it im going to anyways. oh, and this is pretty much for my own sanity so if youre sick of me talking about this guy, than dont read it....
well, one of the other bussers at RR said he'd buy me cigs if i gave him the money, so i went outside in the "smoking area" and he was smoking with cocks a lot. so i went up to him and was like "hey, guess who has money?" then he was all joking with me, acting like he didnt know what i was talking about and he was all like, "well what do you want from me?" and i was all, "you know what i want." and then he was still messin with me and said, "woah i have a girlfriend, i dont think i can help you there", and THEN cocks a lot SWOOPED in with the cockiest thing like EVER and said "hey i dont have a girlfriend! get what you want from me!!!!" omg, yah, and then i was all like, "well, blake said he'd buy me cigs if i gave hime money", cuz you know, my first thought was "OMG HES GOT TO BE KIDDING THATS WAY TO GOOD TO BE TRUE!". so yah, then after i told him that, he said, "how about i get you some afterwards". OMG YES you can imagine how much i wanted to explode right then and there....woooooh. haha, then he and that other busser kept on messing around with me (NOT like that! haha i fucking wish!!) and that other busser said something like, god, anyone with a friends bag must be crazy! and then cocks a lot was all, hey, id carry around a friends bag! and he was all like, yah, jennifer aniston is fucking hot!HAHA if only i looked like jennifer aniston....wow yah, that was SUCH an overload!!!
OK back to reality....
so yah, i just got a new seat cover and wheel cover for my car. they're zebra striped. so yah.
hmm, i havent talked to leah and candice for a while...im hoping to see candice tomarrow and maybe have leah come over if she can....i miss them...for some reason i feel like they're kinda mad at me...its just something i can sense, its a friends thing...i think its because of that last post i wrote about red robins...i really was NOT in any way talking about THEM though, and when i said EVERYONE at red robins thinks all this bad shit about my friends, i meant that it was this one server bitch who told my managers that ALL my friends were annoying and rude, when only a few really were, and they werent really even that rude to her. she's only jealous because all my friends are fucking gorgeous and shes a fat ugly bitch, so it makes sense. seriously, everyone ive ever brought to red robins is hot!(well, at least the girls...)
but yah, i really hope no one was offended by that...
anyways im getting tired of writing this so yah.
~FLay
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::INFORMATION::
1. name? - Eleyah
2. single or taken? - single...so what else is new?
3. sex? - woman haha
4. bday? - 5/17/87
5. sign? - Taurus
6. siblings? - 2 sisters, 2 brothers
7. hair color? - redish, but naturally dark brown
8. eye color? - hazel
9. shoe size? - i dunno
10. height? - 5'6 or 5'7 maybe..
::RELATIONSHIPS::
1. who are your best/good friends? - Leah, Candice, Sierra, maybe Sarah and Candace(well, not lately, but ya know)
2. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? – nope
3. do you have a crush? - haha, i think EVERYONE knows the answer to that question!(not to mention, WHO it is^_-)
::FASHION::
1. where is your favorite place to shop? - hmm, EVERYWHERE...
2. any tattoos or piercings? - yes, 6 piercings(3 on each ear)
::PERSONAL::
1. do you do drugs? - guilty....well, i gotta admit i do...
2. what kind of shampoo do you use? - Tres Semme
3. what are you most scared of? - lossing another good friend to suicide, and rejection
4. what are you listening to right now? – muse: time is running out(great song)
5. who is the last person that called you? - Fan
6. where do you want to get married? - UHH, im still on finding a decent boyfriend, i cant even imagine WANTING to get married..
7. how many buddies are online right now? - 7...yah, im not really an internet social
8. what would you change about yourself? - hmm, besides going into all the physical details, i would have to say my personality more than anything. apparently ive been pissing a lot of people off by being annoying, negative, and self-conscious, which probably all fall under the same category...
::FAVORITE::
1. color? - pink
2. food? - uhhh, i dont really know, or care...OH YAH, Tolberone bars hehe
3. subjects in school? - uhh, it USED to be french and drama, but now i just hate everything
4. animals? - kitties
5. sports? - haha nothing, i hate sports
::HAVE YOU EVER::
1. given anyone a bath? - YES, my cat(hes so cute when hes all wet!)
2. smoked? - like a chimney, not latley though cuz i cant find anyone to buy me any cigs...that IS what they meant by smoked, right?
3. bungee jumped? - no.
4. made yourself throw up? - tried to but cant
5. skinny dipped? - hehe no, but it sounds fun
6: ever been in love? - NO NO NO, that whole drew gunther thing was bull shit, seriously.
7. made yourself cry to get out of trouble? - HA. i cry all the time, but it just pisses people off...
8. pictured your crush naked? - OMG!! i think EVERYONE who has SEEN him has!!!^0^
9. actually seen your crush naked? - yah, uh huh, thats why we always have wild sex and talk to eachother ALL the time!! so no, obviously not.
10. cried when someone died? - oh yah..
11. lied? - hey, who doesnt?
12. fallen for your best friend? - HAHA funny, i havent, but i HAVE had many best friends(ALL girls, go figure) fall for me...dont ask why, shit i dont even know
13. been rejected? - well, by a gay guy, but STILL its like, the worst thing EVER...oh, and i guess you could say i was rejected by cocks a lot too, but not like, directly...in a more subtle way..but STILL it SUUUUCCCKKKSSS!! its like, the worst thing to experience!
14. rejected someone? - actually, more than i can count...wow, that didnt make me sound very good...
15. used someone? - heehee, many dont even know it^-^. dont worry, its no one on LJ.
16. done something you regret? - omg, who HASNT?
::CURRENT::
1. clothes? - one of sarah's old shirts she gave to me, and leah's old pajama pants she gave to me.
2. music? - the radio
3. make-up? - none yet
4. smell? - natural, hhehee as of now...
5. favorite artist? - vanessa paradis, as always
6. favorite group? - lately, id have to say Bright Eyes
7. cd in player? - i have a 5 disc cd player, so, hmm, 1.Evanescence-Fallen,2.Bright Eyes-Fevers and Mirrors,3.Weezer-Green Album4.A mixed cd i made at sarah's5.Radiohead-Pablo Honey
8. dvd in player? - Friends season 5, disc 3
9. color of toenails? - shimmeryish
::LAST PERSON::
1. you touched? - rogue(my cat)
2. hugged? - Nick..eww...yah, we did more than that but i was so stoned so ewww
3. you imed? - Sarah
4. you kissed? - Nick( again, EW)
6. you yelled at? - my mom
::DO YOU HAVE/HAVE YOU::
1. Studded belt? - NO but omg, that question totally reminded me of cocks a lot(cuz he does lol) GOD eleyah, SHUT UP
2. Dyed black hair? - i did in 7th grade
3. Thick rimed glasses? -ha no
4. Tight shirts/pants? - hehe, yep i usually do
5. Gaudy belt buckle? - um no
6. Clothing bought from a thrift store? - actually, no
7. Having hair with bangs longer than the rest? - uh no
8. Trucker hats? - hehe no but that sounds interesting
9. Messenger bag? - um, i think, i have like a million bags..
10. Livejournal/Myspace/Friendster account? - no, i dont....
11. Saucony/New Balance/Converse shoes? - yup, pink converses
12. Mountain climbing key thingy? - no, but i know what you mean
13. X'd up mosh gloves? - no
14. Scarf? - yah, like 5 haha
15. Referring to bands as acronym? - no thats retarded
16. Vegan diet? - nope
17. Vegetarian diet? - i did for 6 years, but i stoped like a year ago.
18. Food Not Bombs participation? - no
19. Straight edge? - HAHA hell no
20. Aspiring photographer? - haha no
21. Using a dj from the late 80's/early 90's (i.e. rad, gnarly, rockin', etc.)? - uhhhh noooooo
22. Pins/buttons? - not anymore really
23. Plugs/body piercing? - Yes.
24. Vinyl collection? - no
25. Moldy Peaches fan? - what?
26. Liking metal seriously? - some of its ok i guess
27. Liking metal core? - seriously, what?
28. Reading books over? - I do that a lot... but not lately
29. Riding a bike? - haha no, but i scoot sometimes lol
30. Participating in "the mosh"? - uh, noooo
31. Tea aficionado? - what the fuck?
32. Writing poetry? - god no
33. Attended 50 shows or more in a year? - i havent even been to one REAL band show
34. Attending hellfest? - no
35. Being in a band? - im not THAT much of a loser
36. Working at an windy record store/health food store? - if you call Red Robin a health food store, but no...
37. Clapping during mid paced part of a song? - how unecessary is that question?
::THIRTEEN RANDOM THINGS YOU LIKE::
13 sleeping
12 cats
11 weed
10 cigs
09 movies
08 hot indie bands
07 watching freinds
06 hanging with my friends
05 driving
04 feeling content and happy with myself
03 laughing at the stupidest things
02 having crazy dreams that make no sense
01 hot bussers at red robin(what? i couldnt think of anything else to write...)
::TEN MOVIES YOU LIKE::
10 Moulin Rouge
09 girl on the bridge
08 the ring
07 Sleepy Hollow
06 Girl Interrupted
05 Romy and Michele's High School Reunion
04 Scary Movie 3
03 Legally Blonde
02 Far and Away
01 i cant think of anything else right now
::ELEVEN GOOD BANDS/ARTISTS::
11 Vanessa Paradis
10 Bright Eyes
09 The Strokes
08 The White stripes
07 Radiohead
06 Evanescence
05 U2
04 Sublime
03 Placebo
02 Incubus
01 Marilyn Manson
::TEN THINGS ABOUT YOU::
10 i sleep in a lot
09 I depend on my friends way too much
08 I hate living with my family
07 I fear being alone for too long
06 I have mixed emotions all the time
05 I always have to be busy or else i get really depressed
04 I need to stop likeing people way out of my league
03 I'm very emotional sometimes
02 I suck at many things
01 I am a loser
::NINE PEOPLE YOU WANT TO SPEND MORE TIME WITH::
09 Leah
08 candice
07 Candace
06 Cocks a lot(does that count?)
05 the hodges
04 sierra
03 C
02 Llama
01 Big Jon
::EIGHT FAVORITE FOOD/DRINKS::
08 orange juice
07 pepsi
06 water
05 lemonade
04 milk
03 woah. uh. food. uh.
02 gatorade
01 raspberry iced tea
::SEVEN THINGS YOU WEAR DAILY::
07 undewear
06 bra
05 my robe
04 my airwalks
03 my elephant ring
02 makeup
01 a happy smile =)
::SIX THINGS THAT ANNOY YOU::
06 liars
05 bad liars!
04 bad drivers
03 unplanned pregnancy
02 eye infections
01 monthly periods
::FIVE THINGS YOU TOUCH EVERY DAY::
05 myself. ;)
04 moeberry
03 my bed
02 my stereo
01 my pillow
::FOUR SHOWS YOU WATCH::
04 gilmore girls
03 sex and the city
02 full house
01 boy meets world
::THREE CELEBS YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON::
03 Johnny Depp
02 Britney Spears
01 JLO! hah. i'm just kidding. i don't know. mischa barton.
::TWO PEOPLE ON LIVEJOURNAL YOU HAVE KISSED::
02 talanhawke
01 lil_miss_lamb
::ONE PERSON YOU COULD SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH::
01) That person should know who they are...<3
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Does he kiss your eyelids in the morning when you start to raise your head?
And does he sing to you incessantly from the place between your bed and wall?
Does he walk around all day at school with his feet inside your shoes? Looking down every few steps to pretend he walks with you.
Does he know that place below your neck that is your favorite to be touched and does he cry through broken sentences like I love you far too much?
Does he lay awake listening to your breath? Worried that you smoke too many cigarettes. Is he coughing now on a bathroom floor? For every speck of tile there are a thousand more that you won’t ever see but most hold inside yourself eternally.
I drug your ghost across the country and we plotted out my death. In every
city, memories would whisper, Here is where you rest. I was determined in Chicago but I dug
my teeth into my knees and I settled for a telephone and sang into your machine.
You are my sunshine, my only sunshine
I kissed a girl with a broken jaw that her father gave to her. She had eyes bright enough to burn me. They reminded me of yours. In a story told she was a little girl in a red-rouge, sun-bruised field and there were rows of ripe tomatoes where a secret was concealed.
And it rose like thunder, clapped under our hands. And it stretched for centuries to a
diary entry’s end where I wrote, You make me happy when the skies are gray You make me
happy the skies are gray and gray and gray.
Well the clock’s heart it hangs inside its open chest with its hands stretched towards the calendar hanging itself but I will not weep for those dying days.
For all the ones who have left there are a few that stayed. And they found me here
and pulled me from the grass where I was laid.
The Calendar Hung Itself, Bright Eyes
p.s.: listen to this song. its insanely riveting.
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you are violet
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Your dominant hues are red and blue. You're confident and like showing people new ideas. You play well with others and can be very influential if you want to be.
Your saturation level is lower than average - You don't stress out over things and don't understand people who do. Finishing projects may sometimes be a challenge, but you schedule time as you see fit and the important things all happen in the end, even if not everyone sees your grand master plan.
Your outlook on life is bright. You see good things in situations where others may not be able to, and it frustrates you to see them get down on everything.
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haha, well, this may not EXACTLY be me, but its defenatly what i want to live up to.
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Wednesday, March 24th, 2004
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| Time: | 5:34 pm. |
| Mood: | calm. |
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awww aparently some mexican guy from kuppajoe who was playing in this band that i saw with kelsey her friend ashley remembers me from like 4 months ago and thought i was hot and got my sn so yah im flattered^-^.
anyways, yah steve is SOOO creepy!! i bet HE was that iloveshrooms guy!!!! GOD i HATE him and i hope he dies!!!!
oh, and sarah just HAD to mention that me and yuri were a lot a like cuz we fight a lot, and i guess that's true, we were kinda like a married couple. without the love, duh. GOD we ARE alike! we're both making up shit about haveing a girlfriend and a boyfriend just so we dont lose face! omg, i REALLY hope he ends up moving to oregon, i REALLY dont wanna run into him again. what a bastard.
soooooo i gotta jam home soon. haha. i have a fucking shityass english paper to write. I HATE SCHOOL.
~Flay
oh, and if anyone knows about anyone selling a car for around a grand, then tell me. NOW.
oh hey kyle, dont you have like four cars? how about selling one? haha i dunno if thats true or not but whateva.
i need a car. badly. and i have the money. kinda. and i might buy one from one of kelsey's friends if im lucky. maybe. i really hope so.
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Wednesday, March 17th, 2004
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yah, i found a picture of YURI online....
incase u guys were wondering what he looked like... im pretty sure its him, if its not than it looks EXACTLY like him, but his face isnt as squished in like Mo's(sarah's cat)..haha GOD im SOOO creepy!!!! |
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Saturday, October 25th, 2003
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| Time: | 9:39 pm. |
| Mood: |  confused. | | Music: | elliot smith, the guy who committed suicide...aww. |
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god, im really pissed right now and i feel like shit. i mean, you know, i have a HUGE stomach ache cuz all i had to eat today was coco krispies in half and half(yah, we ran outta milk) and then later like, at 5, me and hodges went to starbucks and i got a frappachino and then i drank a bunch of highly caffinated sodas so yah i feel like crapola!!
ANYWAYS, to the point! wull, i went to the mall with hodgie at like, 4, and i got the new blender and the new spin magazines cuz they had like, a 2 page article on the strokes(yah im a little obsessive, hehe) and OMG, i just found out the Mojo magazine with the strokes is gone!! DAMNIT! but theyre on the new NME i think..GOD i HAVE to go to riverpark next weekend its IMPERATIVE.
ok, THEN, we went to sam goodies and i bought the first strokes cd and reserved the second(hehe im SOO excited about it!). then we walked over to target and i bought charlies angels 2, the unrated version, on DVD.
haha, then we went back to the mall and i helped buy sarah tetris hehe.
then we walked over to starbucks, got my frap, then made our way to eat it at red robins where we sat, swooning over cocks a lot and looking at my magazines, swooning over julian. hehe. yah, OMG, in the one picture in the blender magazine, his hair is like, black, and he looks SOOO fuckin much like david its insane! haha, he's online right now but he's idle so i dont wanna look stupid and IM him when hes probably not gonna get it.
yah HAHA serious guy said david's girlfriend dumped him cuz he OBVIOUSLY wanted to get a reaction from me and i was all like, why did you mention it? and shit cuz i KNEW that it wasnt true cuz like, duh! who would dump someone who looked like JULIAN? seriously!
ok so yah, cocks a lot is officially off my projects list. there is no project 4 anymore. first of all, this random girl was all like, wheres that really hot jeff guy? and yah, i know thats dumb but STILL. haha yah, and then afterwards when i got dressed, i was wearing the handcuffs like it was the most normal thing in the world, and he saw me and i bet he thought i was the CREEPIEST person in the world cuz like, seriously, why would he think id wear handcuffs? not to mention, WITH a playboy bunny shirt, AND a hands belt. lol, i bet he didnt even care but yah.
oh, and then i walked back in without the handcuffs just to play mind games with him, hehe. then im all like, whats with the hat? and hes all like bad hair day and his hair was all messed up haha, i thought it was hella sexy though cuz it was getting pretty long, and then im like, dont cut it, you should seriously grow it out! haha, im trying to form him into the perfect guy, not like he isnt already though JESUS!
but yah, OH, earlier, he was telling this other girl who worked there how he was on a freakin diet! god thats bizarre...
ok so yah, my life is really unecessary. OH and brad's got a fuckin new girlfriend that bastard. god, i feel like he thought leah wasnt good enough for him or something. it makes me really mad cuz they were so fuckin adorable together, seriously, for a long time now, i forgot about ever being jealous of them, just freakin happy to the extremes. i mean, when i was around them i felt like there was still people in the world my own age who truely love and appreciated eachother without the need for sex constantly. i mean, i dunno, maybe im overexaggerating their relationship.
ok im getting really tired and i can hardly type cuz im shaking of coldness..oh, AND, since sarah's parents are gone i have to walk home in the cold cold night. no pun intended. AND i feel like im gonna fall over and sleep so yah.
so what am i supposed to do?
hey, ever try fucking yourself you damn bitch?(yah, only the sarahs really know what i mean hehe).
~Ele
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Friday, September 19th, 2003
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well, sarah made a hate list earlier, and since i thought it was a great idea, i'll make one too.
i hate my dysfunctional family from hell, i hate my name, i hate how im not as pretty as 99% of the people i know, i hate how people say i overreact to everything, i hate unecessary drama, i hate immature high school guys, i hate how im depressed over everything, i hate how im jealous of everyone, i hate how god just makes these HUGE statements in my face to show me what i dont and will never have, i hate how im forced into my fucking strict-ass religion, i hate how people judge me by the way i used to be in junior high, i hate how i constantly dream about things that will never happen to me, i hate how im uncomfortable with myself, i hate how sarah and staci has this fucking gay love-hate relationship, i hate how my hair can never just be perfectly curly or perfectly strait, but always turns out messy and gross, i hate how i constantly worry about not getting a boyfriend and how my life HAS to revolved around that, i hate how i cry my fucking eyes out everytime i listen to the song colorblind, i hate how i have so much fucking homework this weekend, i hate how i constantly feel alone, i hate how i feel so infearior to everyone else, i hate how candice isnt over here spending the night, i hate how leah and candice dont get into as dramatical and unecessary fights like me and sarah do, i hate how i always envy my friends so much, i hate how i constantly embarass myself by almost everything i do, i hate how i always go to sarah's and use up her food and shower, i hate how im not content with myself, i hate how im not allowed to watch friends or th OC, i hate missing the last season of friends because i dont know when it fucking starts, i hate how school can be so gay, i hate stupid freshmen who think theyre all cool and everything, i hate how i obsess over things, and most of all, i hate how i have so much hatred for the world that i have to write out a detailed list of everything i hate.
~Ele
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Friday, September 5th, 2003
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omg, this new livejournal layout is so retarted! im so confused! haha i know im dumb.
well, im at my house for once. there IS a reason why im not at sarah's but im not gonna go into it.
all im gonna say is that im fucking pissed, and no im NOT fucking over reacting cuz im not fucking going into fucking details.
i feel like my opinions dont matter to anyone anymore...i dunno why, i guess i just have such a huge fucking headache. mostly cuz in biology i had to look through this gayass microscope. ha yah that was retarted. microscopes give me headaches.
i basically feel like shit right now. im gonna call sierra soon. im talking to anna right now. i feel like they are the only two people besides tosha that i can ever talk to and have them understand me. seriously, ive never even got into an argument with them before. i REALLY need to talk to sierra about shit now so yah.
~Ele
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Friday, August 29th, 2003
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well yah, i just came home from work. it was pretty kewl. i got my first tip from this really hobo looking dude. it was only a dollar, and i lost it so yah.
anyways, i REALLY wanna do something with sarah and sierra today. yep im friends with sierra big fucking deal, staci.
speaking of which, sarah h called sarah today(sarah told me this) and staci was whispering what she should say to sarah and sarah got so fucking pissed, so did i when i heard about it.
so yah, i dont care if anyone complains about my entrys, im just being HONEST, and if i hurt anyone in the process who cares right? lets ALL live by the staci honesty policy, k guys?
so yah, this shit with staci controling sarah h is so retarted and me and sarah are through with it.
im only gonna post this publicly ONE MORE TIME, then im deleting all those immature people involved in this off my friends list.
besides this shit going on with the backstabbers as i like to call them, things are VERY busy for me. LOL<they should call their pathetic little wanabe band the Backstabbers, or the Fucktards. watch, they become all famous. "yah, how did you guys get your name?""well, all we had to do was be shitheads to our friends.".
sorry, again, im just saying whats on my mind and being HONEST. staci should love me!
enough with that.
im going now.
~Ele
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Saturday, July 26th, 2003
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you know, i was listening to this placebo song and i realized its almost EXACTLY what staci, and me and sarah are fighting about.
th italics are what sarah would say and the bold is what staci would say.
Sucker love is heaven sent
You pucker up, our passion's spent
My hearts a tart, your body's rent
My body's broken, yours is spent
Carve your name into my arm
Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed
'Cause there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you
Sucker love, a box I choose
No other box I choose to use
Another love I would abuse
No circumstances could excuse
In the shape of things to come.
Too much poison come undone
'Cause there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you
Every me and every you
Every me, me
Sucker love is known to swing
Prone to cling and waste these things
Pucker up for heavens sake
There's never been so much at stake
I serve my head up on a plate
It's only comfort, calling late
'Cause there's nothing else to do
Every me and every you
Every me and every you
Every me, me
Every me and every you,
Every me, me
Like the naked leads the blind
I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind
Sucker love I always find
Someone to bruise and leave behind
All alone in space and time
There's nothing here but what here's mine
Something borrowed, something blue
Every me and every you
Every me and every you
Every me, me
Every me and every you
Every me, me
it seriously makes sense.
oh, and me and sarah BOTH thought of this idea, im NOT just saying things for sarah.
we ALL think that staci's being way irrational and cant stop hurting us, and she takes out all her grief on those who care for her the most.
neither I NOR sarah "worship"(as staci says ALWAYS) or are obsessed with staci in ANY way! we are THROUGH with her. we have done NOTHING to staci, we caused her NO grief, all we did was help her out and give her our friendship.
staci says how she regrets how she hurt sierra and anna before, and one day she will very much regret what she did to us.
we're not gonna have anything to do with staci until she shapens up and actually tries as hard as we did to be our friend.
~Ele
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